. . . .  . . .a party nite out@EDGE. . .. . . .awesome gfs. . . . . .tommy tiger-print jacket. . . .sexy li' top n mini mini skirt. . .  .da brand nu ecko high heels. . .  .mary quant earrings. . .  .everything seemed so perfect. 

. . . . . . . actually its not as bad nite, except da not-surprising music. . . . . .a bunch of disgusting guyz. .   . .da breathe-taking crowd. . ..da pain from da high heels. . . . .da song MA BOO. .  . . .

i juz hv no idea wurr did da feelings of sadness n emptiness come from??!  it ruined ma mood. . . ma gfs' mood.  . . . . .oh gosh!  i cant believe i wanna cry in front of da crowd n under such condition!!!!   hey i supposed i can hv a krazi nite out!

i promise 2 ma gfs n maself that i wont let such a foolish act happen again. . .  .i'll try!

~ ~ ~ U'll always b MA BOO. . remember BOI, who's da one who gave me da 1st kiss. . . .even though we used 2 argue its alrite. . .. .i know we hvnt seen each other 4 some while. . .but U'll always b MA BOO ~ ~ ~

. . . . . . . . .i wanna rocK u baby. . . . . .i wanna hold u baby. . . . . .

. . . . . .i want u be ma baby. . . . .i wanna be yo lady. . . . . . .

baby let me rocK w chu.  . .u know i wanna rocK w chu!

.  . . .still being that krazi me. . .  . . i started luving him secretly after i broke up w him. . . . .is that a huge huge joke? . . . . .how foolish i m?

  back 2 da career topic: i went 2 macau 2day, 4 one day.  i hv 2 get an id card there so that i can wrk there. . . .but i still hv 2 wait 4 a period. . . .

  i found there is a really nice place. . . .quiet n so Macau.. . .da building. .. .da feeling. . . . .da ppl. . . . .da view. . . . .n da mood.  i took a lot of pic on da streets. . . everythings r so interesting. . . . .its not bad 2 work there i think.  i'll keep lookin 4 jobs in hk anyway. . . . .i dun wanna leave here. . . . ma home . . .ma fds. . . ma place! 

      i wanna change another job anyway. . . .leaving da KOSMO.  its an easy job though. . . .but it makes me thinking of him so often!  this is da place we met. . . . . . . .i met da bastard i luv THERE!  i mus leave there!  although da ppl wrking there r so nice 2 me. . . .

      i've made up my mind now.. ..  . .. .me gon hv a krazi nite out w ma gfs!  me wanna meet more nu ppl. . ..  . . .may b i can meet a nu boi 2^^

     ~ ~ ~  i'll go clubbing krazily during da lunar nu yr! party til dawn! ~ ~ ~

. . . . .here r some words that i truly dedicate 2 da one i luv n used 2 luv me(hopefully). . . . . ..

~ U r supposed 2 luv me ~ y U can walk away so easily? ~ now U r in luv w ya nu gal madly ~ do u even think 'bout me? ~ U know i miss U like krazi? ~ n being left in da world of misery!

~U know i luv U so? ~ how can u jus let me go? ~ without a doubt that u'll neva know ~ that my heart is bleeding like a rose. . . . .

~U know U r not perfect ~ n U always bring me headache ~ but there's some magic ~ which makes me still luving U without logic!

~U said U r a nice guy ~ then U treated me wrong n made me cry ~ I wanna hold U n make U smile ~ but I know U dun deserve me since da tym U lied!

~U know we can b da sweetest thing ~ but now u ruined it n we became nth ~U know wut u left me after da spliting? ~ its ya no. that i'll neva ring!

. .  . . . .U r my inspiration 2 all of da hapiness n sadness, hatred n luv. . . . .??

. . . . . . .u know wut. . . luckily. . . .these dayz, i kinda get rid of my ex-bf thing. cz there's sth else 2 draw my attention away - thatz my career - sth that i should b focus on, rather than da stupid, no-possible-result-can-b-4c- relationship thang. 

MA MUM who is always a control-freak 2 me, wants me 2 work in MACAU.  there's a possible nu job that offers me a rather attractive remuneration package 2 me - jus some loose info from my relatives - not sure bout da background n da job description - i doubt if its that gd as they describe.   but anyway, i'll give it a shot, i'll go there nx wk 2 c da real deal. . . . .everything is not confirmed yet, but my will 2 go there 2 work is getting stronger.  i wanna hv a change in life.  . .i wanna a nu working environment - coz i m kinda sick of da current one, n i wanna meet nu ppl n stuff.  i think its tym 2 hv some stimulation n inspiration 4 myself. . . . .. . .  its gd 2 step out from da sad memory. . . . ..n get away from my family's control. .  .. .hopefully i can do that!  hey i m still young. . .. . .sure i can try everything i want. . . . . .nth 2 lose rite?

. . . . . . .. .stil i'll give it a serious consideration b4 making any decision. . . . .its not somewhere that i m familiar w . . . . .  .n i m gonna get used a completely different pace n culture.  i dun wanna leave HK. . . . .

2nite i met da HOPPERS. we r all different from da HOPPERS b4 in da citydanso. . .  .we all changed. . . .sure we get changed. . . . .in different ways. . . .from style 2 thinking.  but we still hv fun 2gether. . .talkin bout da citydanso.  ..da recent situation . . .. .n da future plan.  we stil care bout each other. . . . . .luv each other.   . .may b not as close as b4. . . . .but they r my most valuable things that i got from ma tym spent in CITY!!!!! luv ya all!

i mentioned a lot of 'change' n 'difference'. .. . .coz i think its a mus. . .it happens in every second 2 everyone.  so i may b obssesed w da guy i luv b4. . . . .now i m thinking bout my own future. 

things r ever-changing . . . .no one knows wut will happen. . . .so jus let it b DA WAY IT SHOULD B. . . . .  . . .

CHERZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!

. .. . . . . .reality is CRUEL!  i learnt that well.  sometimes u work hard on sth, da outcome mus not as gd as ya expectation.  like da mini b performance 2day, although everyone's working hard on it, da outcome was not that satifactory. .. . . .jus in my opinion. 

thatz y i learnt that expectation is a luxury. . . .da more u expected it 2 b, da more disapointment u get.. . .like u expected ya boi will treasure u in da best way that he can, but actually he treats u like nth - sori gfs, i always sound so miserable these dayz - but we still hv 2 try our best on everything, rite?  da show mus go on, life should go on, da world's still turning round as it should b.  . . . . . .GET RITE!

2nite i saw an excellent film called CLOSER.  it disclose da most realistic n fearest side of luv affairs. .. . i felt so cold in heart after watching it. . .  . .its so controversial but true, so horrible but awarding.  i like natalie portman, da attitude she possessed 2wards luv - she got hurt - she got healed by herself - she fell in luv w a bastard, a poor n stupid bastard - she knew how 2 let go - she got tripping - she could walk away n started a brand nu page in her life as if nth happened - she could luv - she could hate - she could remember - she could 4get - she could b pretty outside - she could b evil inside. . . . .a character thatz far 2 strong 2 survive in this luv war.

but if relationship is all bout sex n lies, its a complete tragedy then,  privacy is a mus but @da same tym, can we jus open our heart 2 da one we luv?  respect n treasure them in da way that they deserve?

u owe me an explaination.  . .u owe me da truth that i desire. . . . . .